from 'De Profundis'
And the end of it all is that I have got to forgive you. I must do so. I
don’t write this letter to put bitterness into your heart, but to pluck
it out of mine. For my own sake I must forgive you. One cannot always
keep an adder in one’s breast to feed on one, nor rise up every night to
sow thorns in the garden of one’s soul….I must take the burden from you
and put it on my own shoulders. I must say to myself that neither you
nor your father, multiplied a thousand times over, could possibly have
ruined a man like me: that I ruined myself and that nobody, great or
small, can be ruined except by his own hand….Terrible as what you did to me
was, what I did to myself was far more terrible still.