Wednesday, December 18, 2013

'change feels like death beause it is'

If we knew what was going to happen -- if we knew the pain and fear and ugliness that's part of our fate, if we forgot that it keeps the world turning -- who knows what we'd do differently? That's why the Oracle only has one eye, because this is not part of the physics: God and time work together to tell you this story, as many times as it takes, until you start paying attention. If it doesn't hurt, if it doesn't feel like death, you're just pretending to change. Burn sage and sweetgrass and get a haircut and move to another city, go on a diet and swear off men for six months, a year, the rest of your life: that's cosmetic. Nothing really changes until you close your eyes and jump. That's half the confusion right there. Take a drop of water, or mercury, and divide it: whatever face the messenger wears, the message stays the same....it's just that we keep hearing it wrong. Over and over again, until we get it right.

- Jacob on Battlestar


(which is lovely, and makes me cry every time I read it, but still, THEY KILLED MY GIRL AND IT PISSED ME OFF)