I have been reading Mr. Kafka and I feel his problem of getting grace.
But I see it doesn’t have to be that way for the Catholic who can go to
Communion every day. The Msgr. today said it was the business of reason,
not emotion—the love of God. The emotion would be a help. I realized
last time that it would be a selfish one. Oh dear God, the reason is
very empty. I suppose mine is also lazy. But I want to get near You. Yet
it seems almost a sin to suggest such a thing even. Perhaps Communion
doesn’t give the nearness I mean. The nearness I mean comes after death
perhaps. It is what we are struggling for and if I found it either I
would be dead or I would have seen it for a second and life would be
intolerable.
- via
descensus Averno facilis est